haiz....how come i need to make phone call when im doing internship wor.....actually i very hate and scare to make call d loh....cz....my listening skill damn bad lah....everytime talking with friends on phone i normally is dun knw wad they talking about especially when they speak so fast....
Wau.. I really forgot about this blog already...XD if not i too boring in the office and suddenly think of want to write on blog, i won't remember this.. (actually is the pc I use can't c chinese..so i can't use my chinese blog. XD ) erm...just feel boring and want to typing..but actually i really dun knw wat i can talk about and write about...so.....erm....talk about recently thg?
In this new sem, something is changing liao…. The classroom changing cz most of d class at audi, just 1 class is in the classroom….the coursemate cz got many new ppl….and some other thing….
Dun knw why, in this new sem, I feel like I dun wan to care more thing oledi…cause the 1st year in the segi or last few year, I care too much…but I care about what is a secret lah…. Now, I just like have a new life style…. This few day I keep thinking, why I change and what make me change…. The answer maybe is, in holiday I take care of my nephew? Hm…. Not very sure… maybe taking care of them make me become more patient guah.. but seeing them make me feel like, how long i don’t have a happy life liao?? Maybe after graduate from primary school…or earlier? In my childhood, my sister always play with me, but when im 9 years old, they all go out to work or study liao. So that time I suddenly feel like very boring and got a bit autistic… since that time, I seldom go out to play liao.. I always stay at home and do nothing. That time I suddenly dun know if I going out, where can I go or where should I go?
At f3, my father didn’t working liao. So since that time, I starting to become a little bit stingy and always think of my family. That time my sister also feel that im changing liao, she say im just like a “guan jia po”. At Form4, I want to change to study account, but my sis and parent didn’t permit it. When form5, I really dun know what teacher talking about and cnt remember anything from the book. And that time, my house d economy not very well, so I know that if I cnt get a good results, my parent sure will let me to study at college…but study at college is very expensive.. so I still remember that time I try my best to study, and I feeling very stress… but no ppl know about it.. and my parent also say that I lock inside the room is sleeping but not studying… what can I say? I dun know since when, I cnt sleep well at night.. every night I insomnia…and it become a part of my life till now…. sometime thinking of my future…I cry…. I dun wan to become my family burden… and when I know that I cnt gt in matrix, and my results although all is credit but not very good. I still smile in front of every people..but who know that im hide inside the room and cry whole nite… no ppl know about it….
At form 6, I want to change take account again, but my family force me to continue study science… although I say that im not very good in science, but they say that, I dun have any account basic, how I study it and so on… tat time, I really dun wan let my parent know about my results at all, I dun want they too worry about me…if they ask me about my results, I just say still ok, all pass… and the results come out… i know my family feeling disappointed, but they still say nvm, now got many college, u can continue study there…. But that time I really feeling like dun wan to continue study and start working… but sure my family not allow it!! And when choosing the college, I show that I not interest about everythg… and at the end, my sister settle it for me..
I ask some of my friends, and also my best friends, what do they think about me. Most of them will say that im a very positive person and not very care about other thing and I stil remember 1 of my friend say im very “xiao sha”… maybe I really make them feel like this way, but actually they dun know me well… im a kind of person like dun like to disturb other people and dun like to “fan” other people, although some of the thing if I doing it by myself very take a long time or difficult to finish it, but I sure I will done it by myself, cause I always think that, other people also got their thing to do, what for I disturb them leh…haiz… so, maybe this kind of feeling make my friends think that no need to worry about me…and my family also feel like this… I stay at hostel for 1 month or more, they sure wont call me and ask about my life style here. If they really call me, sure is they want to ask something like where is the thing or how to do it or other else. So, sometime I really feel lonely and feeling that this world very boring… but what can I do? It not easy for me to change that… haiz…
Write till here.. im feel no mood to do anything again… haiz…..
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next week i start my school liao....but actually my sis ask me to skip 2 week class...because she want me to follow her go back hometown and take care for her daughter.....sians ah.....
but sudenly i remember that i not yet pay d streamyx fee leh...already few month liao....haiz.....so after discuss with my sis, she finaly agree to let me go back liao~~ hahahahhahahaha
planning to going back college at monday, i will direct go college from my hometown....so the morning class i sure is cnt attend liao d....haiz.....bt after thinking it, i feel lazy and thinking to skip the class leh....paiseh lah....
and all the way i wan change few bus and also want to take ktm leh.....bring along my lovely and heavy laptop....haiz......sure i will no mood to study liao d.......
2day i jz going bek to hometown...reach here around 4pm lah, luckly not very hot, still cn tahan....then help to clean the house loh, cz got few week no ppl stay at home liao.....then bz cleaning...after cleaning, take bath and go out to take dinner. walao, tat restaurant quite expensive leh....haiz....
then 8pm+ i feel sleepy liao, so i go on d air cond loh....and sleep around 9pm~~~ haha~~
bt tat air cond damn hot leh....not cold at all d....haiz....so, 10pm + i really cnt tahan liao....and finaly decide to wake up. then "bao yuan" at living room there...maybe 2ml father will help me solve the problem~ XD
hm...nth to say liao...dun knw later i cn sleep back or not leh....HOT AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahaha greetings everyone.
i am one of the mystery blogger blogging in this blog haha :p
ok bye bye,
and darling, dont skip college hahaha :p
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
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when study, i wish the holiday faster come.....but when holiday, i really don't know what can i do during the holiday....sians ah.....
at my sis house, i become her free maid....although i no need to help her sweep floor or what lah, but sometime see she work so hard...i bu ren xing leh.....so, at the end i will help her........
haiz....but free maid also can get many thing d leh~~ ahahahah~~~ like a hp~~~
my bro..(aiya..darling i still very lazy to type full d leh. XD ) want to change his hp, so means that he will give me his old hp to me~~~~ bt although say is old hp lah, but it look like quite new d leh~~~ ahahahhahaha....bt dun knw when he will go buy lah...haiz....its a problem....
jz nw my mom call me say my 2nd sis in hospital now...bcz of denggi.... wish she will recover soon.....haiz...tis is d 3th time my family member gt denggi liao........i wish to go her there to teman her, bt i still need to stay here to help my sis ==''' haiz....
and hor...mayb i end of sept jz cn go bek hostel leh...bcz wan to help my sis again...sians.....
means mayb i got few week cnt go bek study liao...although i go to college jz sit there and dreaming oni lah....hahahhahahaha~~~~mayb i will let my sis change her mind to let me going bek~~~bt..........dun knw tat time i at kl or hometown.....if at kl easy lah...jz go take bus then cn reach liao...bt if at hometown..............
haiz.....boring holiday life ah!!!!!!!!! bt h1n1 so serious also cnt go out play leh....sians ah sians.....
最近呢，由于太无聊了。。所以一个人静静的想了很多的事情。。。比如说以前的生活啦，现在如何啦，未来会变成什么样啦。。。到最后。。。我的结论是。。我有一个失败的人生吧。。。
我在家中排第六，是最小的。所以父母都比较宠我。家务如果我不要做的话，妈是不会逼我的。。。久而久之， 我变得越来越懒。。到中学的时候，一放学回家，我就会先把功课做完，如果不会做或要很复杂才能得到的答案的题目，我都会空着，然后第二天去学校抄朋友的答 案。。。下午四点钟我肯定会睡觉， 没办法。。懒人啊～～觉得去上学已经用完了全身的精力了。 然后七点准时起身。 为何我每次都能准时？？那是因为我六点多就醒了或肯本就没睡，只是躺在床上而已。。。。。然后吃了饭就上网到半夜了。。。。。这就是我中学的生活。。。
我跟我最小的姐姐年龄差距是八年，所以当我小学还没毕业的时候，我的姐姐们就出外读书或工作了。所以一下子，我的聊天对象全都不见了。。。。所以那时候开 始，我很少跟其他人沟通，除了我的几个较好的朋友之外。。。就酱，久而久之我的沟通圈子越变越小了。除此之外，我的沟通能力也变差了。有时候，我甚至不知 道要跟别人说些什么才好。。。。。而且有时候会觉得跟不是很熟悉的人在一起，我会突然间觉得很不习惯。。有时候真的很想无视那些人。。。。。额。。我不会 得了自闭症吧！？
从NS出来后，我就没这么的懒惰了， 开始帮家人做些东西。有一段时间，我姐说我变成了管家婆 ==‘’‘ 持续不到一年的时间，我就开始过promoter的生活。。。。。但。。。。沟通能力还是这么的差啊！！！！然后不久就在segi读书了。。。。。。。
然后呢，跟第一帮的housemate呢，关系不错。因为我有个很多话的roomate。但是跟她这么就我还没偷到师的说。。。。大部分的时间，我都是当 一个聆听者。当我跟我朋友说我不是个很会说话的人的时候，她们通常是不会相信的。。。。。。看来我给太多错觉给我身边的人了吧。。。。。
现在的housemate呢，我实在是不知道要如何跟他们沟通，所以就大部分的时间待在房间自娱自乐了。。。。有点像过回了我中学那段自闭的时间。。。。。
